Changing Faces, Chapter 1
Title: Changing Faces
Author: cyn_ful
Spoilers: HBP, OotP, GoF, PoA, CoS, SS/PS
Summary: Harry begins his quest after HBP.
Pairings: H/G, H/T, T/L, R/Hr, various others.
Warnings: Well, besides the obvious that there will be mega spoilers to HBP in here, there will be slash. Yes, I might be doing a bit of het, but honestly do we really feel that I can not slash something. Hmmm, maybe it will have to be my new OTP Dobby/Kreacher. As of right now, no major warnings though.
Disclaimer: I am playing with my toys. I’m making this world so much better, the way it should have been…yes…that is it. I promise to put them back the way I found them and I promise not to break them…just toy with their emotions for awhile.

Thank you so much burningchaos for loving me enough to put up with my bad writing, my insecure moments, and those times I just won't shut up about Tonks. I love you. You are totally awesome.





"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes


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Harry lay in his bed thinking of the events of the past days. It was all a swirl of madness, the burial of Dumbledore, the Minister of Magic still trying to get Harry to “join” the Ministry, Fleur actually not being squeamish over Bill’s mangled body, Tonks and Lupin….Harry choked back tears. He didn’t realize that would be what hurt the most right then. His anger over Snape was slowly calming, although he would still hunt the man down.

Harry remembered the conversation he had with Hagrid and how he had mentioned a fight between Snape and Dumbledore. Apparently Dumbledore was making him promise to do something, and Snape said he couldn’t. Harry realized so much more was going on than even he knew. There were so many questions he needed answered. Starting tomorrow he would be able to begin his search in earnest, well after his last trip to the Dursleys’ that is. He knew he would have to go to Grimmauld Place for a bit. He would need to get Kreacher and Dobby situated there as a home base. With the uncertainty of Hogwarts, Harry knew he needed to keep Kreacher where he could not cause any trouble.

Maybe the Order would start meeting again. He would be able to join now he would force the issue. The only problem would be seeing Tonks. She looked happy the other day. He didn’t know why he was so upset. He had told her over and over again that he loved Ginny. He desperately kept reminding Tonks of Ginny right up to the moment her mouth had covered his cock.

Harry sat up. He had to stop the train of thoughts. His mind was a jumbled mess, and it would not help matters to sit and think about the one person he never thought he would have a crush on. Granted, you don’t easily forget the first person you have sex with. She was so much more than a crush though. She was possessive, demanding, and always in control. Why then did she look at Lupin as if he hung the moon that he howled to once a month? How could she go from claiming Harry’s lips, his body and then cock as her own and then look so happily at Lupin?

Harry walked to the window. He had the room to himself. Ron was sleeping across the hall and more than likely Hermione was with him. He stared at the nearly full moon wondering what Lupin had that he didn’t. Harry turned and walked out of the room and down the stairs. Everyone was sleeping soundly, so he didn’t worry too much about waking anyone. He slipped out the backdoor and walked into the garden. He sat down with his back to the house and just stared at the moon.

He had not thought much of his new relationship with Tonks. In the beginning, he was more worried about Ginny finding out, but then he knew it needed to be kept secret. He shouldn’t be upset that she was now dating Lupin. It wouldn’t do for her to be seen with Harry. It would be too dangerous.

It just didn’t make sense. He still remembered the first time she kissed him. He did not see it coming. He ran into her in the seventh floor corridor while he was trying to find a way into the room Draco had entered, the need to find out what he was doing in there had been overwhelming. Harry snorted, “I guess we know what he was up to now, don’t we?”

Harry had just turned the corner and scared ‘Susan Bones’ away. Apparently it was Crabbe who was standing watch outside of the Room of Requirement. He always seemed to be the one following the Hufflepuffs around.

Harry had heard a sound and looked up. Tonks was walking towards him. She saw him and seemed to be upset. They had run across each other before, but this time she seemed angry with him. “Why, Harry?”

“I’m sorry, what’s wrong, Tonks?” Harry asked concerned. He didn’t see the hurt in her eyes, just heard the question.

“Ginny Weasley? Couldn’t you find someone better?” she asked quietly. “She isn’t worthy of you. You need someone that can be your equal.”

Harry looked at her in shock. Ginny was an amazing witch and they had just started their relationship. “What is wrong with Ginny?” Harry demanded. His temper was coming quickly.

“Nothing is wrong with Ginny, Harry. You just need someone stronger, someone that will never need you to save them,” Tonks said quietly. She looked up into Harry’s eyes and did something he would never forget. She pushed him up against the wall and kissed him. She began to tell him that he was hers and only hers.

Harry started to protest, but the minute his mouth opened her tongue swept in. She claimed his mouth as her own demanding access to it, not taking “no” for an answer. She pulled Harry in closer to her as she deepened her kiss. He slowly began to respond, against his better judgement. This was so different than kissing Ginny. There was so much more passion.

Harry nearly kicked himself for having those thoughts. He cared for Ginny, he did. He couldn’t help the reactions he was having to Tonks.

“Say it, Harry. Say you are mine.”

“I’m yours,” he said quietly, looking up into the silvery eyes. Damn her for being a Metamorphmagus. She could change at will, and apparently she willed Harry to look into silver eyes, instead of the brown ones that had looked haunted moments before.

She opened the door to the Room of Requirement and took the stunned boy in. She laid him down on the bed that had appeared and slowly began to undress him. She kissed him, slowly, teasingly and made love to him that night. His body responded to every touch from her hands, her lips. He moaned her name over and over as she lowered herself onto his cock. She laid claim to Harry that night.

Harry had tried to remember Ginny. Tried and failed. Harry came hard and fast. Tonks had leaned over and laid a gentle kiss on him before she got up and got dressed. “You are mine, Harry. Don’t you forget it. Mine and only mine.”

She turned and walked out of the room and Harry just lay there. He thought of what had just happened and cried. He knew this would come back and haunt him. It would hurt Ginny so much. He wanted to see where his relationship with Ginny was going to go, but now he just didn’t know. Slowly he got up and cleaned himself off.

He walked slowly back to Gryffindor tower that night. He never spoke a word about that night with Tonks to anyone. He just continued on as if nothing had happened. When he saw Tonks patrolling the edges of Hogwarts, she pretended as if she didn’t see him.

Harry leaned his head back and felt the tears falling. It was the first time he had cried since that first time with Tonks. He didn’t understand it. How could she have gone from loving him to loving Lupin within a blink of an eye? It just didn’t make sense. Harry watched as the moon slowly slid down the horizon and he could feel the first rays of the sun coming up before he moved again. Another sleepless night, the first of many more to come, he was sure.

Today was the first day. It was going to begin in earnest. He would go to the Dursleys’, just as Dumbledore requested. Then he would be off to find Voldemort and kill him. Maybe during his quest to kill Snape and Voldemort he would find a way to heal his heart from the obvious betrayal he was feeling from Tonks.



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